The picture above taken from the movie Fast & Furious 4. Three guys are talking and drinking. The middle guy (bad guy) raises his glass of wine and says, "to the ladies we love, and the ladies we lost. Salute!".
It is a little scene of the movie, but I find it impressing. Yeah, someday you will head to a certain period of your life which is long enough for you to look back the past. What reminds you of then? Memories. Sometimes, memories of fading affairs really turn you down. Within your life, how many ladies have you hooked on? How many times have you felt missing someone badly? How did you react?
We can easily love a lady, and dump her even easier. Love is somehow impulsive and sometimes we just follow our vagarious moods to get into a lady without pondering whether we match her or not. Why bother pondering? We feel her sexy/pretty/cutie and it's just enough to get into her. That's it. Life is easy. Ladies, are sometimes too naive---or too easy or too wise---for us to catch---or to be caught, that we get involved into such amourette hastily. We don't even have time to feel love before it's gone. And when it's gone, we have no after-taste of it at all, or just a very slight scent of hers is still subtle over our minds, which also totally vanishes transiently.
However, I believe if we respect love seriously, we will be much happier. Love-game is easy to play, and easy to lose yourself, too. What is left after such games is a feeling of emptiness which is really be able let you down inextricably. Talking about the ladies, sometimes the ladies we lost deserve being reminisced. Anyhow, they are whom we used to love, or still loving. I have my ladies. They crossed by my life and gave me such happiness. I lost them, and I don't remember a lot of things about them, except sad memories. Time kills all. After a breakup of an affair, I keep some love-tokens of ours. But I realize that I lose those stuffs over the time, also realize if we want to keep something reminiscent of the past, we should keep the intangibles not the tangibles. Memory is intangible so that it could be kept longer in our minds. Unfortunately, time also kills human's minds, too, so that we will lose everything of the past someday, and soon. It is why I always treasure memories as the most invaluable, cherishing thing. Memory is the proof of the life I have passed by, and each single piece of it never ever is allowed to forget regardless of cheerful or tearful it is. It is what makes my life's meaning: cherish the past as present is less prior.
But no matter how much I cherish the memory, it's gone someday as time passes by. I know this and I accept this. To be honest, I think it's better the memory is gone naturally instead of staying with its owner immortally. If we rigidly insist on keeping the past, we will close our hearts and sooner get stuck. We should keep our mind, heart, and soul open in lieu of closing them, otherwise we are unable to find next love. When memory is gone, it is. Past is past and we are living at present.
Last night, I had such a nightmare about my first lover. She was there, clearly. She smiled. She laughed. We were intimate. Just like the time we were together. Hell, the dream illustrated too clearly about us, we did such thing which I cannot stand for or never think of again since I lost her. She was too real. It was not the first time I dreamt of her but it was the first time the dream illustrated such silly and terrible things which scared me. Sigh... she is too far away now but it seems I still get obsessed from her. When I woke up, I hardly believed I could have a dream like that. It really turned me down and scared the hell out of me. Okay, dream is just a dream and I'm not kind of person who is afraid of confronting the past, or anything. What makes me scared from that dream is not because I met her again, but the feeling as if I still have something on her or else the dream shouldn't be that... intimate. The fact is I have nothing left for her. Absolutely. Totally.
I'm deeply into my new affair now and don't wanna have anything affects on it. That kind of dream really pisses me off when I see myself embracing with other girls rather than my true girl. I'm sweated when I wake up and a little bit thrilling. How the hell could I have such a dream?
Thing goes fine when I'm online and read my sweetheart's sweet offline messages. I just feel like to be revitalized. Anyway, it is a dream and even how bad it is, nothing you need to care about, just forget it. I realize what my real love is and what I really should cherish: the present. Yes, I should not cherish the past that much, what I should cherish is the current life! Sweetheart, she is my present life and I should put everything from the past behind in order to be with her. Past is worth being treasured but I should take it easy. Sometimes bad memory comes and it hurts, but I can be able to keep it in guarantee so that it no longer infects other aspects of my life. I can keep my head up, I can move my life on whatever happens.
I still can salute for both the lady I love and the ladies I lost care-freely. I still remember them. I treated my lost ladies bad from the past which is my lesson now to treat my current lady better. Still, I forgive every bad things they have done to me, too, and really appreciate them for crossing by my life and giving me such happiness. Thank you, ladies! Wish you all lucky in life, as I am since I can find new love. My new essence of life: avoid mistakes from the past re-happening and treasure the present!
Let me close the past and open the present. What is bygone, is bygone!
0705 pm
180909
It is a little scene of the movie, but I find it impressing. Yeah, someday you will head to a certain period of your life which is long enough for you to look back the past. What reminds you of then? Memories. Sometimes, memories of fading affairs really turn you down. Within your life, how many ladies have you hooked on? How many times have you felt missing someone badly? How did you react?
We can easily love a lady, and dump her even easier. Love is somehow impulsive and sometimes we just follow our vagarious moods to get into a lady without pondering whether we match her or not. Why bother pondering? We feel her sexy/pretty/cutie and it's just enough to get into her. That's it. Life is easy. Ladies, are sometimes too naive---or too easy or too wise---for us to catch---or to be caught, that we get involved into such amourette hastily. We don't even have time to feel love before it's gone. And when it's gone, we have no after-taste of it at all, or just a very slight scent of hers is still subtle over our minds, which also totally vanishes transiently.
However, I believe if we respect love seriously, we will be much happier. Love-game is easy to play, and easy to lose yourself, too. What is left after such games is a feeling of emptiness which is really be able let you down inextricably. Talking about the ladies, sometimes the ladies we lost deserve being reminisced. Anyhow, they are whom we used to love, or still loving. I have my ladies. They crossed by my life and gave me such happiness. I lost them, and I don't remember a lot of things about them, except sad memories. Time kills all. After a breakup of an affair, I keep some love-tokens of ours. But I realize that I lose those stuffs over the time, also realize if we want to keep something reminiscent of the past, we should keep the intangibles not the tangibles. Memory is intangible so that it could be kept longer in our minds. Unfortunately, time also kills human's minds, too, so that we will lose everything of the past someday, and soon. It is why I always treasure memories as the most invaluable, cherishing thing. Memory is the proof of the life I have passed by, and each single piece of it never ever is allowed to forget regardless of cheerful or tearful it is. It is what makes my life's meaning: cherish the past as present is less prior.
But no matter how much I cherish the memory, it's gone someday as time passes by. I know this and I accept this. To be honest, I think it's better the memory is gone naturally instead of staying with its owner immortally. If we rigidly insist on keeping the past, we will close our hearts and sooner get stuck. We should keep our mind, heart, and soul open in lieu of closing them, otherwise we are unable to find next love. When memory is gone, it is. Past is past and we are living at present.
Last night, I had such a nightmare about my first lover. She was there, clearly. She smiled. She laughed. We were intimate. Just like the time we were together. Hell, the dream illustrated too clearly about us, we did such thing which I cannot stand for or never think of again since I lost her. She was too real. It was not the first time I dreamt of her but it was the first time the dream illustrated such silly and terrible things which scared me. Sigh... she is too far away now but it seems I still get obsessed from her. When I woke up, I hardly believed I could have a dream like that. It really turned me down and scared the hell out of me. Okay, dream is just a dream and I'm not kind of person who is afraid of confronting the past, or anything. What makes me scared from that dream is not because I met her again, but the feeling as if I still have something on her or else the dream shouldn't be that... intimate. The fact is I have nothing left for her. Absolutely. Totally.
I'm deeply into my new affair now and don't wanna have anything affects on it. That kind of dream really pisses me off when I see myself embracing with other girls rather than my true girl. I'm sweated when I wake up and a little bit thrilling. How the hell could I have such a dream?
Thing goes fine when I'm online and read my sweetheart's sweet offline messages. I just feel like to be revitalized. Anyway, it is a dream and even how bad it is, nothing you need to care about, just forget it. I realize what my real love is and what I really should cherish: the present. Yes, I should not cherish the past that much, what I should cherish is the current life! Sweetheart, she is my present life and I should put everything from the past behind in order to be with her. Past is worth being treasured but I should take it easy. Sometimes bad memory comes and it hurts, but I can be able to keep it in guarantee so that it no longer infects other aspects of my life. I can keep my head up, I can move my life on whatever happens.
I still can salute for both the lady I love and the ladies I lost care-freely. I still remember them. I treated my lost ladies bad from the past which is my lesson now to treat my current lady better. Still, I forgive every bad things they have done to me, too, and really appreciate them for crossing by my life and giving me such happiness. Thank you, ladies! Wish you all lucky in life, as I am since I can find new love. My new essence of life: avoid mistakes from the past re-happening and treasure the present!
Let me close the past and open the present. What is bygone, is bygone!
0705 pm
180909
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